My Every Day

Yep. Another attempt at a 365.
January 6, 2012 - Mall, Viewpoint, and Denny’s with the Stooges
You know that point where you hang out with a group people and they all just workout. That’s Me, Madel, Curt, and John. We went to the mall to watch “The Devil Inside Me” but it was sold out so we ended up going to the Ultra Star Cinema. Went to the mountains which was beautiful. It’s weird how you can look at the whole Temecula Valley from that point. Then went to Denny’s to eat Zesty Nachos  Fuck yeah.

January 6, 2012 - Mall, Viewpoint, and Denny’s with the Stooges

You know that point where you hang out with a group people and they all just workout. That’s Me, Madel, Curt, and John. We went to the mall to watch “The Devil Inside Me” but it was sold out so we ended up going to the Ultra Star Cinema. Went to the mountains which was beautiful. It’s weird how you can look at the whole Temecula Valley from that point. Then went to Denny’s to eat Zesty Nachos  Fuck yeah.

June 5, 2012 - Chicken in lemon and tomatoes and this guy
It would’ve been a picture of that chicken dish that my dad cooked but I ate it all up before I even thought of taking a picture.
This day was a break, you can say from the great day yesterday. Stayed at home all day and the real highlight was the chicken breast I asked my dad to cook and surprisingly, he got my request down. I wanted it with the taste of lemon, just like how it was in ate Chani’s wedding. At the time I didn’t really appreciate the chicken because I was so hungry, and I promise you I wasn’t the only one. But now I come back to the taste of that dish again. The green beans, the zesty chicken breast, and the mashed potato.. man it’s like Seafood Wharf in Philippines where there’s just dishes that are so good that it becomes etched in my mind. 
This guy made my day too by finally opening up. He’s usually boring and about cars but this time he spoke about his feelings and his doubts. It’s weird how he’s the complete opposite of Alvin, but I’m  still completely in like with him. Also weird how easily I opened up to this dude. How easily he got my trust and “worth” of affections even though he has his issues and insecurities. Its’s like we’re both broken individuals and together, we feel complete. 
That simple sentence of calling me amazing is not unique at all but for some reason I feel like it’s so rare and so real. That’s probably the reason why I liked this guy because his words seem genuine and I find stability in that, even though he himself isn’t stable. I’m not complaining too much about that though because I’m the same. We’re a complete opposite and an identical pair at the same time. 

June 5, 2012 - Chicken in lemon and tomatoes and this guy

It would’ve been a picture of that chicken dish that my dad cooked but I ate it all up before I even thought of taking a picture.

This day was a break, you can say from the great day yesterday. Stayed at home all day and the real highlight was the chicken breast I asked my dad to cook and surprisingly, he got my request down. I wanted it with the taste of lemon, just like how it was in ate Chani’s wedding. At the time I didn’t really appreciate the chicken because I was so hungry, and I promise you I wasn’t the only one. But now I come back to the taste of that dish again. The green beans, the zesty chicken breast, and the mashed potato.. man it’s like Seafood Wharf in Philippines where there’s just dishes that are so good that it becomes etched in my mind. 

This guy made my day too by finally opening up. He’s usually boring and about cars but this time he spoke about his feelings and his doubts. It’s weird how he’s the complete opposite of Alvin, but I’m  still completely in like with him. Also weird how easily I opened up to this dude. How easily he got my trust and “worth” of affections even though he has his issues and insecurities. Its’s like we’re both broken individuals and together, we feel complete. 

That simple sentence of calling me amazing is not unique at all but for some reason I feel like it’s so rare and so real. That’s probably the reason why I liked this guy because his words seem genuine and I find stability in that, even though he himself isn’t stable. I’m not complaining too much about that though because I’m the same. We’re a complete opposite and an identical pair at the same time. 

January 4, 2011 - LA with the Belly Dance Team and this baby

This was one of those days of new experiences and environments. The types of days that I look forward to. The types of experiences that I see myself doing for the rest of my life, as a job. Something that involves a lot of travel, interaction, and variety. 

Woke up early, like there was school and met the girls in front of Albertson’s. I had to ride with Sharon, Kaitlyn, and Kat (Kaitlyn’s mom and driver). I thought of the irony of being stuck with the people that I have the least interest and familiarity with in the team. I thought it was going to be an awkward ride but it was actually pretty nice because Kaitlyn played Dubstep all the way to LA and her mom oddly liked it. She was supposed to be a Harley Davidson biker chick but okay. 

We got there and got lost a couple of times, and there was a bridge where it was packed with the homeless with their dogs. The whole scene where you only see in pictures, living in Temecula. Now I know what suburbia means. This is the city and it gave me the eerie feeling of home. The graffiti, the trash, the homeless, the traffic, the heat, the atmosphere, and the smog. I felt the home feeling especially in Long Beach. Seeing the name typed out in white on that green board on the freeway, it felt as if a hand touched my soul pulling me in. 

Fashion District was heaven. There were so many cute items for a low price. If I lived in LA, me and my mother would always be there, I just know it. When Kaitlyn said “The people in LA scares me” It kind of annoyed me because.. I felt good around LA people. I felt like I was surrounded with hardworkers and people who have known real struggle and not the Winchester traffic that we Temeculans go through. I’m not saying that Temeculans don’t work hard and don’t experience problems, in LA it’s just a different grind. It also bugged me when the girls didn’t want to buy the street food (hotdog, tortillas, and other mxn food) and they rather bought Subway. 

After LA, we went to Naomi’s house which was another reflection of what I want to achieve in life in the future. They had a big, interracial family with three cute dogs. The color scheme of their house was very neutral and peaceful. Their backyard was amazing. It was full of vegetation, shade, a trampoline, and a nice feel in the air. There was a box that was painted with the three dog’s name which gave it a childhood fun feeling. 

Then went home and made love to this bowl. I can’t believe I actually bought one for 5 bucks. I always thought of getting my own but saw it as impossible but here it is. 

Then went night swimming. Another one of the most unforgettable sensations. Just swimming on my back and floating around, feeling the molecules of the water hit my body gently. Looking up at the stars.

January 3, 2012 - Ice Skating in front of Temecula City Hall

I started ice skating since I was in Philippines and I used to think it was the most surreal thing on earth because it doesn’t even get that cold in Philippines. But of course, it was artificial. Ice skating in America while outdoors is just a very different and much better feeling. That Martin dude was there just hanging out with is friends, Alvin’s friend and Veronica’s cousin, which is Alvin’s ex. I loved the idea that it was literally 4-5 blocks away from where I live so I can just walk here and ice skate if I want to. 

I liked night skating better than at daylight because the lightworks are so cool at night. The second image is just an image I got from Google because Auntie Jasmine’s picture didn’t capture the lightworks.

AJ was there too. He looks like a guy now (he’s supposed to be bi). Sometimes, I feel like the cause of being bi is going through a lot of pain and complication that the decision making of attraction of which sex is affected. It becomes a whoever-shows-me-affection effect. Just an observation in some people who all of a sudden turns bi, I know that some people really are born bisexual.

At first, I was a scaredy cat just hanging on the sides. Then Mica showed me off by skating off slowly, so I thought “If she can do it, then I freakin can”. So I just let go and got the hang of it pretty quick. I didn’t fall at all which was my worry. Dads were falling though, which was pretty funny. This one chubby dad was skating around like an ice princess to the music, even funnier. 

Seeing my Mom and Dad pop out of nowhere in the sides just watching made me feel happy. They’re rarely motivated to leave the house because their both so lazy but they came out and walked to the rink to watch. We also walked home which was a mini bonding time for us. Mom mentioned that we would’ve walked the same distance from Caloocan’s city hall to our house in Philippines and it made me realize how much I don’t walk to places anymore. You always have to drive. 

Skating around the small area was a pretty liberating feeling and I longed for these sensations.

Too many guys think I’m a concept, or I complete them, or I’m gonna make them alive. But I’m just a fucked-up girl who’s looking for my own peace of mind; don’t assign me yours.

—Clementine (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)

(Source: solipsistic-interjection)

January 2, 2012 - Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
I went over to Madel’s after going to the gym together. I love the underlying competition between us whenever it comes to health and what not. It’s just a girl’s nature to do that and its existence whenever I’m hanging out with her makes our relationship even more genuine. I really can’t get enough of hanging out with her because we just bond perfectly, except for when she gets into her addiction with things TV shows or whatever. It’s that trait of being strongly addicted to something that scares me and reminds me of my Dad. I’m not saying that I avoid them at all cost, I’m actually surrounded by people like them. Hell, maybe I am too, I just don’t want to admit it. It just gives me uneasy feelings. It’s like watching your loved ones climb down a steep cliff as they invite you to join them. Then you join them but the fear of falling never leaves. 
I took a nice shower in Madel’s bathroom and I love how she has so many beauty products that I got to use and scan over. I’ve always loved going through people’s things. Ever since I was little I would just open people’s drawers and examine every little trinket and diaries. No bad intentions though, just intensely curious. 
This movie almost made me cry because it screamed my situation. Of how I’ve just been trying to forget anything and everything that has caused me hurt because I just really want to be happy. I want to stay afloat. This one quote that Clementine (Kate Winslet) says, hit the spot. People fall in love with the person that I am and I’m not complaining but I just feel even more misread when that happens. This picture is my favorite scene because it reminds me of Eric and other guys that has caught my interest. I fee like whenever I settle on opening myself up, I try as much to show every aspect of me while they are just so private and enclosed. I can’t blame them though cus that’s what’s probably keeping me around. The curse of curiousity? Maybe.

January 2, 2012 - Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind

I went over to Madel’s after going to the gym together. I love the underlying competition between us whenever it comes to health and what not. It’s just a girl’s nature to do that and its existence whenever I’m hanging out with her makes our relationship even more genuine. I really can’t get enough of hanging out with her because we just bond perfectly, except for when she gets into her addiction with things TV shows or whatever. It’s that trait of being strongly addicted to something that scares me and reminds me of my Dad. I’m not saying that I avoid them at all cost, I’m actually surrounded by people like them. Hell, maybe I am too, I just don’t want to admit it. It just gives me uneasy feelings. It’s like watching your loved ones climb down a steep cliff as they invite you to join them. Then you join them but the fear of falling never leaves. 

I took a nice shower in Madel’s bathroom and I love how she has so many beauty products that I got to use and scan over. I’ve always loved going through people’s things. Ever since I was little I would just open people’s drawers and examine every little trinket and diaries. No bad intentions though, just intensely curious. 

This movie almost made me cry because it screamed my situation. Of how I’ve just been trying to forget anything and everything that has caused me hurt because I just really want to be happy. I want to stay afloat. This one quote that Clementine (Kate Winslet) says, hit the spot. People fall in love with the person that I am and I’m not complaining but I just feel even more misread when that happens. This picture is my favorite scene because it reminds me of Eric and other guys that has caught my interest. I fee like whenever I settle on opening myself up, I try as much to show every aspect of me while they are just so private and enclosed. I can’t blame them though cus that’s what’s probably keeping me around. The curse of curiousity? Maybe.

(via l-ocytocine)

January 1, 2012 - Sunday Mass and Old Town

We went to the church and I feel so sinful checking out other cute guys in there. Can’t help my eyes, it’s magnetized to all things nice. The homily was something about breaking the laws of society in order to really connect to God’s words and teaching. It was hard to pay attention because my eyes were focusing on boys and my mind was focusing on even more boys. And of course, deep life stuff in between. I liked the homily because I always knew that laws are made to limit and discipline. I hate laws. I’m not revolutionary enough to topple it, so I just disobey it. 

This was one of those days where my fighting spirit to go out and do something was on high levels. Ate Angel and them went to SixFlags without an invite so I bugged Madel to hangout. I miss her too cus we haven’t been seeing each other because of her Supernatural and me with Eric. We ended up just walking around Old Town and checking out the ice skating rink for $12.50. I bought this cute bag that I’ve been eyeing for $25. There’s something about the liberation of its design that makes me feel good. I like looking at it and I like its soft but strong fabric. I just love it and even slept next to it. We went to the mall after because Madel had to return her pants and I was itching to steal those cute stud earrings so much. But nah. 

Great way to start the year. Hopefully this year will be like this bag, colorful, random, rambunctious, comfortable, and convenient. I don’t even know. It was made from Nepal.